I wish to thank each of you who've expressed your care and friendship for my darling Jojo. I wish I could personally send each of you a thank you note but I just don't have the postage. So I am asking mine and Jo's friend Vicky to post this email.
I of course know nothing of the internet as I have been in prison for 24 years but Jo did her best to explain to me how it all works. I guess I'm stuck in the old ways where one wrote people. Nowadays a thing is sent via email, same words to many. To me its more personal to share a different letter, card, or email with people. But please forgive I am having the same words sent to each of you this time.
Jojo was sick for months before she let it be known she had cancer. I'd tried to get to see a doctor for her belly but she put it off for months thinking the issue would pass. By the time it was found to be cancer she was given only months to live. However even if it had been found sooner due to the type of cancer she had little could of been done to save her. I've heard it said she went quickly and peacefully. She did go quickly after after it was found to be cancer but it wasn't peacefully. She suffered. The pain was bad and grew unbearable, for weeks before death she couldn't eat, days before death she wasn't even able to swallow water. Why someone so wonderful, giving, tender was given so ugly painful death I don't understand.
Jo gave so much but asked so little in turn. She gave her father care, she gave her son who'd got lazy care and she tried to help him away from that. She never bragged about what she did for other or asked for a pat on the back. She never betrayed someones trust nor was she a gossip. Jo didn't drink nor even cuss (well she'd cuss if really upset). How many knew she gave her time in DC to care for aids babies, holding feeding, rocking them so they would have human touch? How many knew she'd read part of the newspaper on a radio station in DC for the blind to tune in so they could hear the news? How many knew she was carer for her 92 year old father? How many knew she gave her time to a death penalty group in DC doing office work? How many knew she cooked, cleaned for a man who lived near her, not that she knew him however she learned he needed help and she gave of herself to the old sick man.
I was a lost soul carrying so much hurt in me. My Mom was murdered just before I got into this trouble, my marriage had fallen apart and I started drinking a lot and sunk into depression. Due to words shared in anger with a woman in a bar, I took my anger out on her. I shot her and her friend but thankfully they survived. In fear of what I had done drunk I ran out and took a car to get away. Ordering the couple out, the male got out and ran yet the female froze I am sure due to fear. I drove off with her having to stop for gas, why she didn't drive away or run I don't know. Once back in the car and on the road a police chase started. The cop bumped at a high rate of speed the back of the car I was in with the front of his car. It led to me losing control of the car and leaving the road at a high rate of speed hitting a tree head on. She died soon after due to her injuries in the crash.
In jail before being sentenced and eaten up with guilt I tried to kill myself. Then I felt I owed my life for her life. I started to comprise letters to the court and state attorney making that my actions might seem planned and as cold as possible. I said I meant to crash the car to kill the girl, I said I had made her pray for her life and so on and so on. My goal was to make the court sentence me to death by pleading guilty.
I would of been dead long ago as I had wavered appeals and pushed to have my sentence carried out. But Jojo for reasons unknown to her was viewing the net one day and came across my name. She said I felt the need to write to you, I was drawn to you, soon a friendship grew and at her request I sent her files of my case. She read them and said I don't believe you meant to hurt anyone, can I help you prove that? I felt so much guilt still but didn't want to die being seen as the monster I had painted myself, so I agreed. Through her pushing and digging for truths, she was able to fine two court appointed lawyers who agreed to take my case, who are DAMN good lawyers. They hired experts who proved the crash was an accident when the car was out of control after leaving the roadway at a high rate of speed. They proved I was four times the legal amount of drinking to be driving a car for they found a blood test that had been done that night after the car crash at the hospital where I was treated. So it due to her was proven it was an accident and I am not some cold wicked soul. Instead I was driven due to anger, drunkeness, depression, my Mom being murdered by an ex boyfriend months earlier, my marriage fallen apart and so on. But to the courts it changed little. The truly see I plead guilty so case closed and sentence stands and the lies of how I wrote to make this case seem so cold sealed my fate.
But after the courts ruled my sentence stood it was found I have cancer. Jo and I cried and expected I'd leave her months later, her cancer was also found and she left me first. Now I await to join her my love, my best friend. Why my cancer has moved so slowly and hers so fast I do not know. I just pray I will now soon join Jojo. But the only part I don't welcome is my last days once I can't care for myself. I will be put in the prison hospital, locked in a small room with only a bed, toilet and shower, no tv or radio and no one to talk too, no visits just lay there and await death. The prison don't seek to give comfort to an inmate.
Again thank each of you for your care of Jojo. She was a rare soul, a wonderful rare tender soul, who I love with all I am. I have known love before but never did I know true love til loving her.
Respectfully Victor Farr
My songs to Jo....Chances are by Sam Morrison and I'll Remember you by Amy Grant
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